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hydrokinetics) wrote2017-02-26 09:42 pm
hydrokinetics) wrote2017-02-26 09:42 pm
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Here I am living a dream that I can’t hold, here I am on my own [Letter, Sunday, W6]
[This letter is slightly smeared with blood and water, but legible.]
Nat Natalie,
I told you once before that Annabeth asked Hal to install TVs to the train. I know this means you saw what happened this morning.
You only asked me not to let Jason do this. You never said I couldn’t. Plus, of course, Will himself asked me to. He said that he preferred I be the one to execute him. That Will Graham died the moment he hurt you. So I killed the imposter instead.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry if it hurt. I never wanted it to hurt, and I’m sorry you were still alone. I never wanted that. But you’re safe now. I know you are. You’re with friends, and soon you’ll be joined by other friends.
I found the piece we were looking for. Or, I guess, it found me. I know what I have to do now. I hope everyone will forgive me after this, but I have to end this game. You remember how we spoke in our second week? We talked about who would be decent enough to end the game with a good outcome and you said it was between Yuna, Xion, and me.
So many people seemed to know that it would come down to being me. Except for me. Maybe I didn’t know it, but it seems that way. We weren’t as off as we thought we were, were we? All of us have to go in order to go home.
I will fight until the end. I will be the victor. But I don’t know if I’ll ever be the same. Will you still like me after this? I’ll understand if you don’t. We can talk when I see you next.
[There are drawings here now, little skylines and taxis and monuments of New York.]
Keep dreaming of home, Natalie. The big skyscrapers, the city lights, feeding ducks in Central Park and the best pizza in the world. Dream of home, dream of a new life, dream of everything you want to do for yourself. Keep Xion close. Talk to Annabeth if you’re worried. Stay away from Hannibal and Will for now. Be brave in the way you’ve been since I met you.
I will try my best to do the same.
I told you I was a hero, didn’t I? Guess it’s time to be a little less humble. Is it okay to be scared? Don’t tell anyone else. It won’t do much for me now. Maybe a little fear is good. It’ll keep me alive long enough to die.
Thank you for everything you’ve done. Please remember that you matter, and please give Jason a hug for me when he shows up. Apologize for me if he figures out what’s happening. I don’t know what will happen to him, but I know he’ll be safe the moment he sees you.
And when it comes to the end…it’s okay if you close your eyes. I may have to do the same.
-Percy
I told you once before that Annabeth asked Hal to install TVs to the train. I know this means you saw what happened this morning.
You only asked me not to let Jason do this. You never said I couldn’t. Plus, of course, Will himself asked me to. He said that he preferred I be the one to execute him. That Will Graham died the moment he hurt you. So I killed the imposter instead.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry if it hurt. I never wanted it to hurt, and I’m sorry you were still alone. I never wanted that. But you’re safe now. I know you are. You’re with friends, and soon you’ll be joined by other friends.
I found the piece we were looking for. Or, I guess, it found me. I know what I have to do now. I hope everyone will forgive me after this, but I have to end this game. You remember how we spoke in our second week? We talked about who would be decent enough to end the game with a good outcome and you said it was between Yuna, Xion, and me.
So many people seemed to know that it would come down to being me. Except for me. Maybe I didn’t know it, but it seems that way. We weren’t as off as we thought we were, were we? All of us have to go in order to go home.
I will fight until the end. I will be the victor. But I don’t know if I’ll ever be the same. Will you still like me after this? I’ll understand if you don’t. We can talk when I see you next.
[There are drawings here now, little skylines and taxis and monuments of New York.]
Keep dreaming of home, Natalie. The big skyscrapers, the city lights, feeding ducks in Central Park and the best pizza in the world. Dream of home, dream of a new life, dream of everything you want to do for yourself. Keep Xion close. Talk to Annabeth if you’re worried. Stay away from Hannibal and Will for now. Be brave in the way you’ve been since I met you.
I will try my best to do the same.
I told you I was a hero, didn’t I? Guess it’s time to be a little less humble. Is it okay to be scared? Don’t tell anyone else. It won’t do much for me now. Maybe a little fear is good. It’ll keep me alive long enough to die.
Thank you for everything you’ve done. Please remember that you matter, and please give Jason a hug for me when he shows up. Apologize for me if he figures out what’s happening. I don’t know what will happen to him, but I know he’ll be safe the moment he sees you.
And when it comes to the end…it’s okay if you close your eyes. I may have to do the same.
-Percy